Yesterday was a total techno fail! I was trying to run C25k w2 d2 (run 90 seconds walk 2 minutes for a total of 20 minutes) the treadmill stopped my workout twice, and I accidentally hit the wrong button on my phone canceling out the program. I was seriously frustrated. It got better once I stretched and got my attitude in place.The nice thing was I pushed myself to do almost two minutes of running several times. I can feel myself getting better. I can also feel myself becoming terrified about the coming workouts.
Next week I have to run for three minutes, then five minutes, then eight minutes. I need to take my husbands advice and just focus on the next days workout. I am stressing myself out over somehting I should be able to do. I just have fear in my own limitations. I hold that fear tightly to my chest as a security blanket to excuse myself from doing anything more than I think I am capable of. I use that fear to stop reaching, to stop leaping, to stop myself from stretching and growing. I didn’t used to be this afraid of everything. I used to be so brave and up for anything. Sometimes life, adulthood, a hurtful parent, it just brings you down so much that you can’t see up anymore. You can’t see the top of the huge pit you find yourself in. I just have to find my way out of this pit, one mile at a time. Walked, run, or jogged. I will find my way out. I will, again, find my courage.
I hope you too find your courage today. Whether it is to run that mile you have been dreading, apply for that job you have been wanting, or confess love that has been sitting on your heart. Our fear is something that should be squashed! It should ebb away with every mile we conquer. With every achievement feel your courage seeping back into your spirit. Feel your confidence begin to grow. Because, contrary to what we are taught as children (especially little girls), confidence is not a bad thing. Confidence is not prideful. It is being sure of what God has created in you, and using it to the fullest extent!
Be confident in yourself today!
Ps: Today is weights. Weighted squats, lunges, and deadlifts. Join me?